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I have a lot to say every day. not sure how often ill update this blog, not sure what i'll talk about either. we're learning together
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16 May 2026
It's 11:30am. I've showered, moisturized, brushed my teeth, all the basics and I still feel gross. That's okay though, once I am ready I want to go shopping. I think I am addicted to shopping... I am an over consumer of specific items. I say I am "collecting" but am I? LOL
-For example: I have at least 20 Juicy purses and 10 Juicy perfumes and body mists. Is it over-consuming if I am constantly shuffling them out?
♰ Today I am not going to shop for that stuff though, I just got a new purse and it is the most PERFECT PINK EVERRRR. Today I am going to go to an 18+ store and see if anything seems fun to try. TMI but not really.
~This is fun to do, maybe before the end of the day I'll have another entry, this was more for practice.
17 May 2026
12:07am. Feeling a little silly right now. I think Im getting sick again, even though I literally was JUST sick. whatever. I am a little scared to sleep tonight. I swear my dreams have been so so weirdly vivid and uncomfortable. Its like I can sleep for days but my dreams make me wake up exhausted.
♰ Getting ready to watch rick and morty with my baby. we're ldr right now because we are home from college. it sucks, but i get to see him on monday and i dont have to leave him until thursday!! he really is sweeter than sugar, i hope he knows and feels appreciated and cared for. id do anything to make him happier!!!!
~you guys are all so cool and fun, never lose your swag, never belittle, PLUR baby!!
p.s. no one is original or unique, we are all made up of what came before us🖤
18 May 2026
12:36am!!! Herro everyone... i have been cat sitting all day. 5 kittens named nebula, stevie, harry, juniper, and jed (it is almost impossible to type this lol they are all over this keyboard lmao (see png below). i feel bad sliding them off but why do they literally not stop EVERRRR. i am also cat sitting my aunts 19 year old babygirl chloe ;'). its been so fun. I LOVE KITTY CATS.
♰ I am about to wind down, not sure what i want to watch. smoked a little ( a lot ) and feeling sleepy. might not need to take melatonin tonight... am i..... ascending?????? i miss college and my friends because i feel so alone and seperate from everyone else thumbs down emoji/eye roll emoji
~you guys are full of soul and light. you are someones reason for living!!! mwah kiss kiss
22 May 2026
6:56pm :p. HEYYYY ive been gone but ive wanted to post so bad! i went to a cottage with my bookie baby for 4 days and had such an amazing, beautiful, and memorable time. i get sad when i think about my mental health and the way it affects him. i believe communication is key, but i also am stubborn and sometimes dont want to hear it.
¿does anyone else struggle with silencing their illogical ideas? i know what im thinking is not true, but the thoughts repeat regardless.
anyways! he is the best and cutest. small chance he will see this lol.
anyways! came home yesterday, but now im visiting one of my dear friends, we will call him lexi. lexi is great!!! known him for 7 years now and its always a safe space.
♰ i am waiting on lexi to come home from work! i have 2 js ready for us smirk af
~mwah mwah mwah. sometimes leaving home is your only path to happiness. we should meet up sometime and help each other feel better!! cya
26 May 2026
2:47pm how is everyone? i am moving into my new place today!!!.... kinda lol. its a home-turned office. it has no shower or stove or oven lol but thats okay. I will walk next door to shower and then i can always use the air fryer. i've been so busy recently i havent been able to focus on this project.
♰ i am on the phone with my bookie butt!!! i miss him, see him sunday. big smile on my face af!! i am also thinking about what i am going to get for dinnaaaa! bw3,, idk if they support israel but their food is banging.
~hugs to everyone, be kind, be special, be free. -me
5 June 2026
10:08pm HI BABIESSSSS!! i have been so busy between moving, seeing my bookie, and trying to bring myself peace and joy. i am officially one month NO VAPING & one month on my new medicine, prozac, feeling better than ever. i think the next few months are going to be daunting, i am desperate for college to start again... being home is NOT it. however, i am pleased with myself and what i've done since being home. on top of this, my family and i have been doing a HUGE yard sale but i feel bad because i really can't do much: my foot hurts from when i broke it more than half a year ago, it is so bright my head hurts and i can't keep my eyes open, and i am TERRIFIED OF WASPSSSSS!!! however tomorrow is the last day, i am going to try to be more active and helpful by moving things before anyone else gets there lol.
♰ i am watching a random bailey sarian video on private prisons... but its more for background noise LOL. at the same time i am smoking and getting ready for bed. i am so full,,, i ate hella pizza for dinner.
~take a day for yourself!! anyone who appreciates others knows how important it is to rest for yourself. the only way you can continue to make good memories and meet good people is by LOVING YOU AND TAKING CARE OF YOU <3 bye bye, vampyr
23 June 2026
10:52pm Hi sweet vampires, i have missed blogging but have also been super busy with life!!! I have started reading more, picked up a book called "Nature Speak" to help me feel more connected with the natural world-- i love the activities. I also have been at the pool SO MUCH trying to get ready for my vacation in cabo end of july. i got super burnt today tho >:( but it is -okay!!! i am trying to get more comfortable with bees and wasps but i simply do not see it happening. ALSO i finished a little project my boyfriend called me, tipsy cat bar, and it is the sweetest thing ever! ive never felt so seen and understood by someone. tomorrow evening i get one of my nails fixed (it broke off bc i was having toooo much fun lolll)
♰ i am getting ready to hangout with my dear friends, basically family, and then come back home and indulge in some criminal minds and smoke hella before bed. i am texting my bookie butt, i miss him so much!!!!!, and i am going to read before bed as well.
~ happy pride month to all of us sinners, remember to wear sunscreen, it doesnt matter who you are or what race you are, skin cancer waits for no one!!! i am blessed by the universe and world to be able to communicate to strangers this way. much love, stay stong, and be the change you want to see in the world. -yours truly !