i wish people could see the world the way i do. i don't mean through my eyes, i mean through my brain. every positive thing has a negative behind it. that makes it mean more to me. i dont believe good things just happen, a lot of the time they happen to cover up a bad. it is easy to get distracted and focus on other things, but thats just privilege. i do not deserve the life i have, the people i know, or the experiences ive had yet i am too selfish to deny myself them.

-people will always have it worse than me, both materially and mentally, and its my responsibility to think about that. its only fair that i live a good life aware of the bad everywhere else.